Today I spent the day working. At work I'm seen as subhuman. I'm seen as below what I aught to be. It's as if I'm not a person. Serving the world is hard. I'm really disciplined towards what the scriptures testify concerning the sinful nature of people because of it. I see it happening. Live. The arrestings, the evil, the death threats, I've gotten it and seen it. The theft, the lying... The impatience. All of imperfection. I've seen it in them, I've seen it in myself because of them. Like impatience. I had a lady today snatch the receipt out of my hand, "Don't waste my time," she yelled at me. This is absolutely crazy. I said, "Have a nice day," as she walked out the door, where-as before when that would happen I'd get very frustrated inside. But. And there is a but in all of that evil. The death threats, the hatred without a cause, the pride of life and the lust of the eyes and immoral sexual...ness. After that there's a but, and this is it:
"And ye have forgotten the exhortation which speaketh unto you as unto children, My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him:"
"For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth."
"If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not?"
..."Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby."
He's pruning out the imperfections in me like impatience, selfishness, mean-spirited oldman grumpiness, pride, apathy, and behaving as if I weren't myself.
So even though this is so hard, and so dangerous because I've already had one lady tell me I cut her off in my Acura at the light as if I'd hit her or something when I didn't even know, it was such a simple thing to me... Even though: I have a greater hope and I endure it with the grace that fits so easily in the palm of my hands (5 pieces) (Colossians C. 3, Verse 16.) and accept the work of the Holy Spirit and the authority of Jesus Christ
I just have to weed through all the thorns and any weeds that have grown over me, and strongholds that satan might have over any part of the life I've been given. I need to work a lot harder to get those done.
Thanks for praying for me, whoever you may be.
Tschauss.
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