I found a notebook of just stuff written. Some poems here. One I threw away. I'll type out the two. They were written describing a certain woman.
[1] Intangible. You you I am untouchable. You cannot touch me. You cannot see me. To you I am not there. We've never met. Yet I've made you wet. You cannot see me when I'm alone. You cannot see me when I need you. Like an unquenchable thirst, I am always there. Yet, I remain untouchable. I will always thirst for you.
To you I am transparents. You cannot see me. You cannot touch me. To you I am not there. I've loved and known you for years, yet You cannot touch me where it hurts, my heart. You cannot touch me where I see you, my mund. We dream of each other. I reach out for you, But you're not there. I grasp you - I only grasp air.
I will always yearn for you.
Will you always be there?
[2] I DON'T KNOW WHY YOU MAKE ME FEEL THIS WAY But you do. What is a guy to do when he's fallen In love with you. Is it your smile? Your hair? The beauty I see in your eyes? What about you Makes me love you, please give me a reason why.
They don't seem to see what I see in you. Ignore what makes you you, they do. They'll not notice that tiny spark in your eyes. Or the corners of your cheeks when your smile begins To rise.
These poems are sooo elementary. But I wrote them before I was 17, sometimes. There aren't any dates.
This next one I wrote for an enemy that I lived with for 6 years at this time. I'd eventually live with them for another 2 and Christ would come and protect us against him. Here it is:
[1] I HATE you. I wish you were dead. Die. Your mouth is a portal to the ninth Gate of hell that sucks in everything It nears and spits out pure hatred. It is indeed foolish of me to Feed hatred with hatred. That is How you see me, is it not? As a fool. An obstable to your true desire. Its Just my job to try to trip you, isn't it. I remember what you said. You are Here because you'd never go poor. Never alone when you're here. Well, Old man, I have news for you. You ARE alone. You can hide under Your lies and flattery for only a short While. Later than sooner and sooner That later, I will trip you and trap You. Before I leave here, I will Trip you.
