Yesterday I James, Luke, Baby Boy, Marley, Marvin, and I were all down at the studio doing a good thing. Then we rehearsed. We were concerned about Jame's cousin not being our vocalist. The talent show is this Sunday.
Today I find out from Luke that Jame's dad found out he'd smoked pot, and his parole officer is going to test him tomorrow for it. James called me and told me that he'd done it and that he wasn't feeling too good about it. We had a long talk. Then he called me back a half hour later, and we had a longer talk. I'm feeling pretty bad for him. He might be in jail for a year. Adult jail this time. This would be his 5th offence. His youth is wasted on his sins. He once told me that if he hadn't have gone to jail for 19 months before, he'd be a lot better at the guitar than he is now.
Right now, I'm in a very tight spot. James needs $25 to buy a cleanser so he can pass the drug test tomorrow. I don't have the money, but my sister just came in here with the money because she was listening in on the conversation. I don't know. I don't want him to go to jail. But it isn't right for me to give him the money to get out of paying for something that he committed. I've taken it to the Lord in prayer. I don't want to do a bad thing.
It's good to do good for James and get him out of this situation, and he's very sorry he smoked the weed. I don't want him to suffer in jail for a year. Again. Jesus paid our price and got us from death himself, satan. And He did it by grace, out of compassion. But would the Lord want me to do the same? The Lord also shut the door of the ark from the neighbors and friends of Noah from getting in the remnant and finding comfort with the ones the Lord's chosen. I don't know. It's hard. Where is my helmet of salvation? One is the truth. And one of them is a lie. Not what the Lord did, but what's in my mind that's preventing me from making the right decision based on what the Lord Jesus Christ would have me do. It's funny. If right now were tomorrow and the time were past, I'd think radically back at this time when I wrote the blog which is right now in the current sequence of events. And feel very bad if I didn't buy the cleanser for James. But worse if I didn't do the right thing in the Lord's eyes. So is the right thing to buy the cleanser for James? Or is it to let him go to jail?
