yay! I have a new computer now. I am quiote happy. Yes. Quite happy. But, as I have learned from a wealthy spiritual friend of mine, the effect that material possessions have is only temporary. Well, at least I can complete tasks more efficiently. I have so much to do! I reinstalled all of my old programs and some new ones. My graphics program is installed. I installed 3D Studio Max. Everything. It wouldn't run because I didn't have a graphics accelerator so I went to Microsoft and downloaded DirectX 9.0, but I don't know if that solved the problem. I have tested it again yet. But, I should be learning 3D graphics in a few months. Tonight I have to finish this English persuasive essay research and then finish off my Calculus. There's a test on derivatives tomorrow. I also have to work until midnight. And I'm up at 1! How bad is that for me! It's so unhealthy and I'll be falling asleep all over the place. I can catch about 45 minutes worth of sleep on the bus in the morning, but I have to use that time to study for Calculus (yes, I have a flashlight and I work in the dark). Then I have to do the website for NYFlava. I n-e-e-d to finish their website. School is killing me and Work and my Business are finishing me off. But, at least it's productive. I got a lot done tonight and I managed to stay awake without falling asleep and even have time to update this! I have been reading my Bible every day and as soon as I get a few things organized more effectively I'll be posting some scriptures up here. I got the idea from a person here at tBLOG who's nickname I currently can't recall. Well, work 6-midnight after school tomorrow. Then on Saturday and Sunday 10:45 in the morning until 6 in the evening. I work hard, but, as God says, hard work never goes without it's reward. Not that I'm only working for a reward. I could care less about the reward. I work because I am a man of God and God doesn't like lazy people and wimps. I must try to prove that I am not lazy and I don't complain about it to prove that I am no wimp. I can handle this. I can. I truly have no worries with God on my side. I am truly carefree. All I must do is ask it and God provides me with this certain strength that has helped me out of a lot of tiring situations.
Today I was at school and I was doing a MuAlphaTheta meeting with the other officers and we got to the part about fundraising. So I ended up running all the way across the school to Mrs. Bartle's class in the CWMP building (and believe me, I was running fast and people gave me that nut-case look that I usually get when I'm doing something out of the ordinary) and I asked her about the fundraisers. When I got back, I noticed that Mike and Robert were there. I talked to Robert's sister, Jessica, whom I have known since Elementary school. We were talking about the play. Then Mike, who dropped out of the play and whos part I have now filled, wanted me to speak Japanese. I asked him why and he told me that he wanted his sister to hear. And, to my eyes' surprise, his sister was a girl that I had always seen hanging around a certain girl that caught my eye one day. One day sophmore year (when I was young and naive, if that's any excuse for my behaviour) I fell ''in love" with a certain freshmen. She captivated me and all I could think of was her. I did a a few things to try to win over her heart, but she was afraid of me. All year I had wondered why. Then I stopped caring. These little problems that I used to have in the past became trivial to me when I rediscovered Jesus. I forgot all about her. But I never could forget the friends she hung out with. She was one of them. I had no idea she was Mike's older sister. And Mike wanted me to speak my languages because he wanted me to impress her. But I told him I wouldn't do it to impress anyone. He persisted, and I asked her if she'd be willing to come to the movie theater where I work on Saturday at around 6:00PM, when I get off, so that we could see a movie. I don't know if she'll show or not, but if I talked to her and not weird her out, I may get her to come. All of the relationship garbage that would usually trouble a person my age is of no concern to me at all. I am not worried. I just want to get to know Mike's sister. She's an attractive person, I do admit, but I've met many attractive people. Will I attempt to impress her? Absolutely not. I have no reason to subject myself to such a calamity. Every feable attempt to impress a woman has ended in a terrible reverse effect of what I was trying to do. I am just simply...not slick. I don't even try anymore. Oh well. There's plenty of fish in the sea and the sea is wide. So why fish now? I'm too busy in a more profitable market. I'll fish when I retire. Or death. Whichever comes first.
