It started out with my former Kung fu group and I going into a school gym. We got on our hands and knees and started to do pushups. I was doing my ones. I looked over and I noticed that there was someone in the group I hadn't met. He had a pony tail and was wearing a black uniform. I looked at the end of the uniform and I saw that he didn't have a bottom. There was a tuft of hair coming from his butt and it went down and the rest of his pants was just hair. Then all of a sudden there was a sleugh of people piling in and a basketball game started and we continued our pushups. The unknown guy was called away by his girlfriend. The basketball game had movie-like background music that added drama to it. Then I concentrated on my pushups and as I was doing them, I could see people's feet. And then there was a woman with nice legs by me and I was about to lust after her, but I moved before that could happen. Then I continued... I told my sensei that I did 150 and he said I should go and drink some water. So I got up and put my jacket on. It was hot outside. I walked around and I saw a class filling up with students and I saw a guy at school named Roy so I walked over there. Then I couldn't find Roy, but I saw Robin. Then I went up to Robin and I asked, "Do you know where the Amethyst is?" "I like your shoes, they say F-L-A." I looked down and I tried to make a joke and said, "That's because they're fla." Then she said something and walked into the classroom and I was a bit frustrated that she just left without saying anything. So I continued. And I can remember distinctly thinking about another dream I had. I suppose that's where I would have been heading if I hadn't woken up. I was thinking about a dream I had where I went to an athlete's locker room and I found some sort of machine that refreshed my thirst. I can remember waking up in the middle of the night and grabbing my cup and finding no water in it and going back to sleep. I suppose that's what sparked it. I'm not sure.
Perseverance with the Word pays off. The Lord loves to see His children reading His Word with understanding. If the Word resides within you, you shall carry the sword of the Spirit, sharper than any two-edged sword!
Congratulations! This particular bible study represents the half-way point - Having read half of the Holy Bible.
Week: 12 [b]Saturday[/b] - [1] Lamentations. [2] The Gospel According to Luke Chapters 9 & 10. [b]Sunday[/b] - [1] The Book of the prophet Ezekiel Chapters 1 to 6. [2] The Gospel According to Luke Chapters 11 & 12. [b]Monday[/b] - [1] The Book of Psalms Chapters 66 to 68. [2] The Book of Proverbs Chapters 2 & 3. [b]Tuesday[/b] - [1] The Book of Proverbs Chapter 4. [2] The First Book of the Kings Chapters 5 to 9. [b]Wednesday[/b] - [1] The First Book of the Kings Chapters 10 to 13. [2] The Book of Exodus Chapters 37 to 40. [b]Thursday[/b] - [1] The Book of Leviticus Chapters 1 to 3. [2] The Epistle of Paul the Apostle to the Galatians Chapters 4 to 6. [b]Friday[/b] - [1] The Epistle of Paul the Apostle to the Ephesians Chapters 1 to 3. [2] The Book of Psalms Chapters 69 to 71.
[b]This week's Proverb:[/b] "The hand of the diligent shall bear rule: but the slothful shall be under tribute." The Book of Proverbs Chapter 12, Verse 24. "In the way of righteousness is life; and in the pathway thereof there is no death." The Book of Proverbs Chapter 12, Verse 28.
If this is your first time trying this weekly bible study, there is no need to start all the way from the beginning; you can start on today's day and go forward from that day and when the study is completed, go to the beginning to the point where it began and go forward to where you first started! If the Spirit is driving you to know, you can do them all in one day, if you like. If you would like to know, but decide to go slowly, you can do the ones marked as 1 the first week and the ones marked 2 the second.
Just remember: Read God's Word as you are moved by the Spirit. Read God's words with Understanding!
Hah... My sister is 11 and she's almost as tall as I am and I'm 18! I suppose that's the way the Lord planned it, though. I say, "Ho ho ho," and she gets upset. My mum's children are all taller than she is now... I wonder if my children are going to grow tall. They might be kicking me in the forehead or tripping over me. Huhuhuh...
I read through Proverbs Chapter 8 and the Gospel According to Matthew Chapter 6 today. I also did 3 scholarships and sent them off before the mailcarrier arrived to take them. I prayed that the Lord would allow me to get the scholarships so that I don't have to worry about tuition. I'm willing to work as hardly as the Lord requires me to work, though.
I did the Comprehensive application and sent that in and that one is for a lot of scholarships in one. I just pray that they reach the Financial Office by March 26th, on Friday.
I woke up at a phone call from Mary. I didn't answer it in time, but when I went out to the living room to check the caller ID, I noticed that mail was on the floor (they really should invent a better way area of the house to deliver the mail to, because the floor is a bad idea). And so I raked through the ads and bills and, BEHOLD!
An Undergraduate letter from the University that I will attend this fall. It said that the scholarship deadline has been extended until March 26th, which is this Friday. I have another opportunity! I'm so happy... The Lord gave me this. I believe, from the series of events, that He would want me to devote the time I will have to something other than working to pay for tuition. I believe He'll tell me what that is when I get there.
Well, I'm 18 today. I woke up at 9:05 and I suppose that's when it happened. Then I went back to sleep. I'm 18 years old. And I'm an adult in the eyes of man. But in the eyes of the Lord, I became a man at age 17, the summer of 2003 when I decided to pick up the cross and follow Christ. Wisest decision I'll ever make. But, I, as well as everyone, am still His child.
But... Greater is the day that I shall die than the day that I was born. For on the day that I leave this world, I shall be with the Father.
Golden leaves of the Sakoyah tree tricke to the silver grass on which we stand. I feel a cold chill and I picture you there, sitting on this most Holy land. Sitting there, sitting upon a hill. I tell my heart thats quickly being to go still. The leaves tumble past your ebony locks of hair, trapped in your thick lashes. That look you give me sends chills down my broken spine, the usual cold flashes. Your welcoming arms welcome me, the lonely, into your warm invite. So fine those wonderous eyes that entrap me, holding me still in their bright light.
Blessed I feel to meet you in our usual place. Blessed I feel to hold my hands against your face. Under our Sakoyah tree, each brance a soothing memory. To me, you see, you'll always be the one I meet under our tree. In these hallowed trees, each branch, each leaf. Lives on the feeling of you and me, living so happily. And in one wink, it seems, this world of ours that we so cherish. Vanishes into the depts of sleep, gone into the depths of memory's perish.
I wrote this for Carolyn D. on November 14th, 2003, between 9:45 and 10 AM.
The First Epistle of John Chapter 4: Gain the knowledge of God to test the Spirits; decipher truth from deception by knowing the Truth. Know the Word of God! So that you may know false leaders and deceivers by their fruit!
Week: 11 [b]Saturday[/b] - [1] The Book of the prophet Jeremiah Chapters 42 to 46. [2] The Gospel According to Luke Chapters 5 & 6. [b]Sunday[/b] - [1] The Book of the Prophet Jeremiah Chapters 47 to 52. [2] The Gospel According to Luke Chapters 7 & 8. [b]Monday[/b] - [1] The Book of Psalms Chapters 60 to 62. [2] The Book of Job Chapters 41 & 42. [b]Tuesday[/b] - [1] The Book of Proverbs Chapter 1. [2] The Second Book of Samuel Chapters 20 to 24. [b]Wednesday[/b] - [1] The First Book of the Kings Chapters 1 to 4. [2] The Book of Exodus Chapters 29 to 32. [b]Thursday[/b] - [1] The Book of Exodus Chapters 33 to 36. [2] The Second Epistle of Paul the Apostle to the Corinthians Chapters 11 to 13. [b]Friday[/b] - [1] The Epistle of Paul the Apostle to the Galatians Chapters 1 & 3. [2] The Book of Psalms Chapters 63 to 65.
[b]This week's Proverb:[/b] "Be not a witness against thy neighbour without cause; and deceive not with thy lips. Say not, I will do so to him as he hath done to me: I will render to the man according to his work." The Book of Proverbs Chapter 24, Verses 28 & 29.
If this is your first time trying this weekly bible study, there is no need to start all the way from the beginning; you can start on today's day and go forward from that day and when the study is completed, go to the beginning to the point where it began and go forward to where you first started! If the Spirit is driving you to know, you can do them all in one day, if you like. If you would like to know, but decide to go slowly, you can do the ones marked as 1 the first week and the ones marked 2 the second.
Just remember: Read God's Word as you are moved by the Spirit. Read God's words with Understanding!
I don't know... Everyone at the school that I attend is always YAPPING about it. Prom this, prom that. To me, it's just some day in April where for 4 hours everyone gets together and dances. I go to school and dance in the hall! People are free to join in, and they don't need to wear a monkey suit and tie. Stupid proms... I can't wait until I'm out of high school, these things are ridiculous.
And just for the 10 year record, I disliked high school. I disliked it so much that all I ever wanted to do was get my diploma and leave. And the people I hung around felt the same way.
I rise early in the morning. And thank the Lord for another day. I get to school, somehow. Sometimes I think of the work ahead. Sometimes I think of what's due. But in the back of my mind, I'm really thinking of her. I stand and talk with a friend. And when I talk, I keep an eye open, occasionally glancing over in hopes of seeing a part of her sweater.
I like seeing her. I work. I comform stressed data to a structured, linear format. I turn statics into vectors and vectors into statics. The dynamic into the semi-dynamic into the useless and back again. I work and I think. And thinking while I work, I think of her. I retrace memories. And retrace her beauty. 1. The way she brushes back her hair when it's in her face. 2. How her bowling ball shoes and her Superman pullover all have a meaning to them to her. 3. The way her face changes when she smiles or is happy. 4. Her teeth when she smiles a smile. 5. Her eyewear, and how they compliment her face. 6. Her hair, that always seems calm and relaxed. 7. The way she giggles when I do something giddy. I think and I ponder and I ruminate on how we are, together. I fold and I long to see her once again. Suddenly when I let off all of my hope for seeing her on that day, She sneaks up from behind and says her quick, yet assertive, "Hey."
I see the worry in her eyes and the rush of seeing the person who seemed to be in paper in my mind here in the flesh, as if someone out of a dream. a) My heart does laps. b) The blood rushes to my face as I smile uncontrollabley. c) I'm at a loss for words! d) I lose myself in seeing her. e) She is surprisingly more beautiful than she is in my mind-scratchings of her. They are like poor pictures compared to seeing her there with me. f) It feels as though I've entered something warm - liking getting into a warm bath, or rolling into bed after staying up late, or the feeling of drinking warm and sweetened tea. g) I must reach out and touch her somewhere to feel the warmth that she provides.
I talk to her. I like the way she whips her chords when she says something sharp. Her melodic, easy delivery of her grammatically impecable sentences, her audition leaving room for every punctuating ending, capital letter, dotted I, and crossed T.
To see her eyes is like staring at the moon. They attract my own to where it is only her and I must fixate mine on hers to satisfy her beams.
As we walk, she listens and we speak of things. She doesn't feel the need to have to tempt me. We walk the long corridors, pass the shoots, we forth the halls tactfully. We back the ajoinings, having full memory of the entire surrounding, of which we have both formed many memories. She wraps her arm around mine. She says, "it makes me feel safe."
And her embrace...is sweet. I take her in my arms and its as if two earths make a collision. The way she makes me feel...
She's so cute... :wink: Together for a month. Since the day after Valentines day.
When the sun sets and when it rises. And the west sets the east ablaze. The clouds show their color. A dancing array of yellows and oranges and orangey-yellow yellow-oranges. Purples. Lush violet and dark light red. Red in orange and yellow-orange in red. All against a dash of fading blue, blending into the yellow backdrop as if there were no seam. And there isn't one. It's better than anything I can design in Photoshop, that's for certain. And it only lasts a few minutes. But it's worth the eyes. It's worth every moment of attention.
Follow the Lord, in the Saviour Jesus Christ's foosteps, and allow Him to lead you. And as you walk, walk in the Spirit!
Week: 10 [b]Saturday[/b] - [1] The Book of the prophet Jeremiah Chapters 32 to 36. [2] The Gospel According to Luke Chapters 1 & 2. [b]Sunday[/b] - [1] The Book of the Prophet Jeremiah Chapters 37 to 41. [2] The Gospel According to Luke Chapters 3 & 4. [b]Monday[/b] - [1] The Book of Psalms Chapters 54 to 56. [2] The Book of Job Chapters 37 & 38. [b]Tuesday[/b] - [1] The Book of Job Chapters 39 & 40. [2] The Second Book of Samuel Chapters 10 to 14. [b]Wednesday[/b] - [1] The Second Book of Samuel 15 to 19. [2] The Book of Exodus Chapters 21 to 24. [b]Thursday[/b] - [1] The Book of Exodus Chapters 25 to 28. [2] The Second Epistle of Paul the Apostle to the Corinthians Chapters 6 to 8. [b]Friday[/b] - [1] The Second Epistle of Paul the Apostle to the Corinthians Chapters 9 & 10. [2] The Book of Psalms Chapters 57 to 59.
[b]This week's Proverb:[/b] "Behold that which I have seen; it is good and comely for one to eat and to drink, and to enjoy the good of all his labor that he taketh under the sun all the days of his life, which God giveth him; for it is his portion. Every man also to whom God hath given riches and wealth, and hath given him power to eat thereof, and to take his portion, and to rejoice in his labor; this is the gift of God." The Book of Ecclesiastes Chapter 5, as written by Solomon, Verses 18 & 19.
If this is your first time, start on today's day. Go forward from that day and when that is complete, you can go to the beginning to the point where you began. If you're in a hurry, you can do them all in one day, if you like. If you want to take your time, you can do the ones marked as 1 the first week and the ones marked 2 the second.
Just remember: Read God's Word as you are moved by the Spirit. Read God's words with Understanding!
In the beginning, I accepted Jesus Christ as the Son of the Living God, my Father. This was the summer of 2003. I then started this blog because I felt it was important for me to know what I was thinking during the events that lead before and after I truly became alive through Jesus Christ.
So I add to it what I see that I might want to remember 10 or 20 years down the line, having planned to save this somehow. So I don't really put it up to display my personal life to an audience of people, though that is what is happening. One day when I used to work at a movie theater, a co-worker and friend of mine told me that he read my blog and that it inspired him. So I decided to use it for that purpose more than my original intentions. To inspire the people that come to it and to let myself know in the future what I came to know. Thoughts...worries... The Word. Don't give up, Isaac. Stay in God's Word!
Hi. Guess what! It's FCAT day again for the school that I attend. I was watching Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers and I decided to write you a letter. Though you'd probably appreciate seeing it physically, you'd receive it quicker online. Here you are:
Dear Beloved, I wanted to talk some more! But, I don't want to talk to you about the unpleasant things. I'd rather we talk of rabbits. Pretty ponies. Dandelions. And birds with bees. So I want to tell you, not to complicate what's already complicated, but to tell you the truth in what has taken me ages to come to see. My heart. It didn't go anywhere. It doesn't clog with plaque when I've eaten something with a lot of grease and fat in it. It isn't something with a beat or what a doctor can listen to when I ail. Its location is in the same place I lock away the memories of us. It can't be saved to any disc or burnt later. It can be recounted. It can be used to store happiness and taken out later in times when happiness has fleeted. Its nothing physical. When I say I love you, I haven't come to such a result out of seeing the way the morning light courtsies your face. Staring unto your eyes. From your touch or your amber embrace. Though such things can be done in heart, it's not where its from. I have come to love you from coming to know you. And I can't even say that I know you! So I say I want to make love to you. But not in the sense of anything physical. But through every matching word. Every sweet phrase. Every allusion to an imagination-proliferating situation. Love doesn't come from anything physical, this I know. But I can't claim to know the heart. I can't say I know the extent of my own, as you know Who does. But I'm ready and willing to share what I have of it with you. Willing to love you. Ready when you are. (back) So I can't say that Mary is anything but a physical attachment, whom I happen to have befriended. She thinks I can read her mind sometimes. But that thing that we do when we're talking and can predict what we're going to say - I can do that to Mary because I can do it to you. And the Lord our God made it that way. I've fooled myself for too long. I don't know - I don't now, but I can't love Mary. Every kiss and every hug tells me to. But those are physical! I would rather not have ever kissed. Rather not have ever touched. Rather not have seen the beauty of another woman if it ment risking losing you. Its the truth. I'm not going to kiss her to kiss her anymore. No more attachments. So when she goes to kiss me, I will no longer feel guilty about turning from you. When she goes to wrap her arms around me, I will no longer try to pretend it is your warmth. I will accept each hug. And take each penetration of lips. Because I know. They are what they are. And mean nothing more to me. The truth is, loving you makes me happy. And it subsides every desire every wany. It's not something I can find in someone lik eMary. I could always buy another Picapoo toy dog. And I can play with him and he could bring me companionship, but there was only one Caesar. Only one son. No other furry little creature could reproduce what I shared with him. No other person could look the same way as you in my hearts. Awaying your reply. With Love, Isaac D. ------------------------- ------------------------- -------------------------
What was strange was that when I walked into the classroom, there wasn't a cloud in the sky. Then when the bell rang after I had sown a seed, the sky had low patchy clouds. I walked to 2nd block and after that, the sky was back to the way it was that morning - not a cloud for lightyears. I love the Lord... Anyway, I hope you're not mad at me for loving you, Carolyn. And... for not resolving this matter in the beginning. I could have scared your twin sister off, but I just don't have the capability anymore to act phoney. I can act myself, though! Besides, she might get tired of me after a little while and want to let go of me. Today I was tutoring her in Algebra 2 (haha, more like Algebra, 'Too') and before when we were walking to the portable there was this girl that stopped us and saw her hugging my arm and asked if that was her boyfriend. I exhalted her and embarrassed her. And before that she was telling me how she failed gym and I was telling random people that she was dumb enough to fail gym and she was embarrassed. And as I was tutoring her, I let my crazy side take over and I was ansy and jumping all over the place. So maybe I can just be who I am and hope that scares her off. ;-) Have some fun... My friend Antonio is dating LaToya. I saw them today and they're getting pretty close. I was talking to Antonio last night about some stuff. This room is being redecorated. It is going to be painted a bright lime green color this time. And properly. My mum and I are going to do it because my stepfather doesn't have much patience for these things. Oh yeah... I'm practising guitar now and I'm doing fine. Just need another pick. A thin pick. What was busting up all of the guitar strings would be from using that Hard pick, which is for bass guitars, he says. I'm studying the Book of Ecclesiastes. It's great. I just ate an apple. It was red. They're the worst. I like the green apples much better. It's 4 o'clock and one minute, a half an hour before my mum comes home. I'm supposed to have printed out some business cards for her, but I can't find the paper. I deposited $72 into the bank. So I can rechard the phone card and give you another call, if you're up to it.
I was thinking... Maybe I should add a small yellow bird to that cloud design I made. My mum used to sing me this song when I was young. Two days ago in the car she asked me if I could sing and she wouldn't leave it alone. So then she gave up and went silent. And I started singing yellow bird and she said I can sing. (I can't sing. :-/ ) And that she was surprised. So that could have meaning also... I just need to fix the spacing on the bottom. Hmm... I suppose I should search for a job again. Yes. To pay for car insurance. I have had this long-running inside joke for a while now and I tell people I drive an Imaginary Oldsmobile. So maybe I should buy an Oldsmobile. It just sounds funny... Olds-Mobile. I heard they stopped making them. So I figure, why not come out with NewsMobiles? They'd be better than Oldsmobile, with the brandish, older name. And they'd probably sell like flys and ...rice paper or something. And they'd be popular among news stations. I'm going to go to Mary's house and fix her computer tomorrow. Buck up, old girl... It's not like I'm marrying the lady or have had 6 kids with her. Elementary school kids kiss each other all the time! They've probably had more action than I've had, haha... I'm her boy'friend,' not her husband. It's temporary. I take that back. Manfriend. 8-) No... But she's just a friend to me now. A different kind. I can't go with Christian to the beach. He's too pale and doesn't like the sun. But I could take Mary... I can go to the park and lye in the grass with Mary, but if I did this with Adam it'd be weird. See? I've done none of these things with Mary, but... Blahs. I should get to work. Well. I was talking to Harriette about events yesterday and she was telling me all of these things and I just wanted to say I'm not with Mary to get back at you for being with Jon... That doesn't effect me. She was telling me that you guys could be fooling around without me knowing it, but I trust you. And even if you were, there's nothing I can do about it! It's not like I'm going to go and Fred Flintstone over to Indiana and tell you two how to behave. And if I did, I'd be a hypocrit. Because I was cleaning Mary's tongue the other day. Haha... No, just kidding. I don't kiss her anymore. She waits for me to set up a romantic situation and do it in a romantic part of a conversation, but I avoid talking that way with her anymore. But it's nothing... It's like... I can't describe how it is. Oh dear... It's like being with a female version that is all quiet and shy. While I'm all loud and boystrous. If I was a female I'd want to kiss me too! Just to see how it feels to kiss myself. Yum. I think I taste like jelly because I eat a lot of jam sandwiches lately. Crap... I should get to work. Gosh... I was worried all day about how you felt. Thanks a lot, Carolyn! Now my head is polluted with worry and...grief. I might get wrinkles in my forehead now~! I was sitting with a girl that was listening to Miles Davis today. That was cool. I like meeting people that have good taste in music. Not just the whole... Little John, "Okay!" "Yeah!" And the loud yelling and cursing and skeet skeet skeet skeet... There are like 10 curse words and they use those words more than any other word. It's like the word "the." It's pretty hard to describe something without it. They fill in all of the gaps with curse words to make it sound cool. I can't listen to that anymore. Gosh, I need to take out this trash can... And get to work! And so I was sailing the seven hails today and I noticed that... Oh, my mum's late. It's 4:34. That I don't look into peoples eyes anymore. I'm so far off into thought... Oh, here she is. She's back. I found the business card paper. Anyways. I was talking to Christian this morning and he was telling me about how he read the book of Enoch and I was telling him, Christian, Christian, you need to understand the gospel of Jesus Christ before you go galavanting off into the arms of the deceiver because you will be deceived, but he wasn't listening. And then we went into the Library for a few minutes and then he began to tell me about how all of it started to fit together and that it made perfect sense about the parts with Jesus Christ in it and then I began to see that maybe he did actually gain a spiritual understanding from what he read and that I should only offer my advice and not try to pressure him into reading a specific part if he's driven to come to know another part. Because a tiny iota of the Word is able to change people's lives... So I'm glad he's being delivered into the warm arms of the Lord instead of remaining in the dark. Because he was telling me that we should get an apartment together in Tampa and be room-mates in college. So I might move out and do those plans... Ugh... What to do with this letter... I don't want my stepfather to come in here one day and rake through some papers and find it. I was thinking I should tear it up, but you'd probably want me to save it. If you've forgiven me... Baaahhh..... The lack of communication is poking holes in my brain. Oh, I saw this nasty little animation this weekend. It was called Akira and it was set in the future after a postapocolyptic explosion in a certain area and they were at risk of suffering the same fate. And the explosion was from this thing called Akira. And it turned into a cult in the city and the movie is about these street guys that ride these motorcycles that can do 20,000 RPMs. And so in the beginning they were fighting another gang called the Clowns and this kid named Tetsuo tried to clobber one of them with a pipe and he was knocked off of his bike and so the government passed by or something and picked him up and arrested him. Then they took him somewhere and experimented on him with this machine. And wrapped his head. And so he tried to escape from the facility and he took the red motorcycle of this other guy and the gov't found him again and the Clowns beat his girlfriend up and he was getting all angry. So then in the facility they experimented on him some more and all of a sudden his head starts hurting and when he was alone he wanted to escape and when he escape he was blowing people up. I mean, blood and hands and fingers everywhere.... And this is an animation that shows all of the nastiness and nudity. It was gross. He had this flashback where he was using his power and all of his intestinal and stomach organs fell out of his stomach and they were all gooey and he tried to rake them back into his stomach, which I found to be quite upsetting for a second there. And all throughout the movie it was just...eck. The end was big and moving, typical of good Japanese animation, but it was dumb. Don't see Akira. Don't see it. I better get back to work... Oh so anyway today I was sitting in Care and Prevention: Athletic Injury class and I was just sitting there thinking and all of a sudden I had this nasty daydream. Not really a daydream, but a thing where you fall asleep with your eyes open sort of but it's not really sleep. You know, right? So I was thinking about this stomach and at the top instead of the esophogus it was a vagina giving birth to a something and then it fell into this pool of semen and the walls were covered in flapping ding-dongs and secreting... And there were these trees that had breasts on them. It was gross. Halley had a laugh out of it. She's this girl that hangs with Christian and Adam that always wears pants and a fisherman's hat. Never a dress or anything. It's pretty cool. She has nice shirts, though. I almost missed the school bus this afternoon, too... I was running and the bus was stopped because this kid named Rashad was acting up. I was blessed to have made it because I didn't have any bus fair. And there's this girl named Sha'Ron that took a liking to me because I'm strange and she sits with me now. She was all quiet because I she sees me with Mary. It's strange... Girls that I used to talk to at school as regular people act different around me because of her. It's as if they're saying, "oh, you have a girlfriend now, why are you talking to me?" And they're not as smiley as they used to be. And there's this one girl that gave me a dirty look because she used to pick on me for talking to this mentally challenged girl she's friends with and thought I liked her or something. Anyway, Sha'Ron was all quiet around me today. Usually, she's bouncing off the wall and poking me or saying my name. She was today, but she wasn't trying to distract me from reading the Word today. She was singing off key on purpose and when Tracy was angry at her, she just laughed in his face. She's done that five times now. I joined her in laughing the last 3 times, but... And she's nasty sometimes! She had this Photoshoped picture of Nelly naked with his privates hanging out and she was flashing it in people's faces and laughing. All bus ride, flashing it to people passing by.... Giggling at it and trying to make me laugh at it when I was reading the Word. I didn't. She likes that in me because she can't get to me. I made a joke one day and she slapped me! She's actually pretty intelligent, even though people call her dumb for joking around. She can always make someone laugh, which is a sign of intelligence. She doesn't feel challenged in school. And she comes up with the funniest things. "My vagina's gone crazy!" And... stuff. I should get to work... I have this disease. I'm on Goldenseal, Vitamin C, multivitamin, Night-time Alkseltzer, a throat cloriceptic, salt-water... And I took this nasal spray before I went to sleep. Today I walked around breathing through both nostrils, which happens like twice every 6 months for 5 minutes for me. It's amazing! So maybe I've finally found the combination... Anyway, I know I've said this a couple dozen times, but I should REALLY get to work now. Care to talk to me later? I hope you do... ;-) Forgive me! Signed, With Love, Isaac D.
"He becometh poor that dealeth with a slack hand: but the hand of the diligent maketh rich." The Book of Proverbs Chapter 10, Verse 4. In God's Word.
"Whatsoever thy hand findeth to do, do it with thy might; for there is no work, nor device, nor knowledge nor wisdom, in the grave, whither thou goest." The Book of Ecclesiastes Chapter 9, Verse 10. In God's Word.
Work hard to do good works in the name of the Lord. In the Book of James, it speaks of manifesting one's faith in the Lord through good works in His name. And that faith is the body of the spirit of good works.
Put all of your might into doing what the Lord would have you do!
Sometimes I dream certain dreams. I remember them on occasions. And when I try to remember them, they slip through the cracks and I begin to forget. I remember nothing on occasions. And what remains is but a fragment of what it truly was. Yesterday I was with my mum driving to a guitar lesson nearer towards the Tropicana Fields of downtown Saint Petersburg. I remember feeling really good.
But, right now I sit and I think back to that time and I can recall what I didn't remember. I can remember my mum and I discussing something and me mentioning the Lord's name and she began to tell me that the Lord was proud of me and that I'm doing good work, or at least speaking in another context and hinting at this meaning.
If you've seen me, you've seen either red eyes or eye-bags. I stay up late. But last night I had a chance to receive an early night of sleep and went to bed at 11, which may be late for some, but early for me considering it is usually around 2, 3, or 4 AM that I see the backs of my eye-lids. But after receiving a full night's rest, and thinking back on the conversation, I have come to see that there might have been a hidden message in what she was telling me and that it wasn't revealed to me until I had a night's rest, so I wouldn't take it and become prideful, maintaining humility. I'd like to say that this is what the Lord has done, but I'm not quite sure if it happened or if it was part of a dream I had last night or not. Sometimes I might sow a seed and I'd pray to the Lord and say that I didn't say enough or that I could have said better. Maybe He was answering this prayer...that I should relax and do what He's taught me and leave the rest to Him. Even if it was real and not a part of the dream, the Lord may have caused it to happen and magnified a part of the conversation I had with my mum, whom I trust, in a dream so that He could make that clear to me. There isn't anywhere the Lord cannot see. I suppose that's what I should draw and understand from it.
I'm home from school because I didn't have to take any exams, but I didn't want to waste the day. But it's 11:20 already. I'm going to go and sort some papers, do some laundry, then afterwards read a few books. Then its off to studying God's Word. Back in a bit.
I was bleeding from the ears the other day in class, but this morning... It happens in spirit.
I woke up at 4 AM this morning to some tapping and banging. It was from the room beside me, which is where my mum and stepfather sleep. I think they were having sex and when they realized I was awake, it stopped. So... it's been an awkward day around them.
No school tomorrow. I'm glad. If I finish my clients tonight, I can have some sleep tomorrow. So, I will work as diligently as the Lord permits.
I had a dream last night that I went into a sparring stance and was going to fight. I can't remember who it was that I was up against, but I had a smile on my face and said a few words.
I just watched this animation called Akira. It was bloody and had a stupid ending. It was well-done because it sort of took you into its world. But, it's bloody. And gross. It's an old animation. I'm tired of seeing unpleasant things... I want to see some nice things for a change. Like kittens. Or bunny rabbits. I should go and pray.
Friend, it is you who has the desire to know. Therefore, I give you today's proverbs, which pertains to you.
Week: 9 [b]Saturday[/b] - [1] The Book of the prophet Jeremiah Chapters 22 to 26. [2] The Gospel According to Mark Chapters 13 & 14. [b]Sunday[/b] - [1] The Book of the Prophet Jeremiah Chapters 27 to 31. [2] The Gospel According to Mark Chapters 15 & 16. [b]Monday[/b] - [1] The Book of Psalms Chapters 48 to 50. [2] The Book of Job Chapters 33 & 34. [b]Tuesday[/b] - [1] The Book of Job Chapters 35 & 36. [2] The Second Book of Samuel Chapters 1 to 4. [b]Wednesday[/b] - [1] The Second Book of Samuel 5 to 9. [2] The Book of Exodus Chapters 13 to 16. [b]Thursday[/b] - [1] The Book of Exodus Chapters 17 to 20. [2] The Second Epistle of Paul the Apostle to the Corinthians Chapters 1 to 3. [b]Friday[/b] - [1] The Second Epistle of Paul the Apostle to the Corinthians Chapters 4 & 5. [2] The Book of Psalms Chapters 51 to 53.
[b]This week's Proverb:[/b] "The heart of him that hath understanding seeketh knowledge: but the mouth of fools feedeth on foolishness." The Book of Proverbs Chapter 15, Verse 14.
If this is your first time, start on today's day. Go forward from that day and when that is complete, you can go to the beginning to the point where you began. If you're in a hurry, you can do them all in one day, if you like. If you want to take your time, you can do the ones marked as 1 the first week and the ones marked 2 the second.
Just remember: Read God's Word as you are moved by the Spirit. Read God's words with Understanding!
I accepted a deal a little over two weeks ago to design a shopping cart website for $110. I was design and program it. The problem was, I should have charged $1100 for the job. I undersold myself because I was doing it for friends. But a lot of important things happened in my personal time that overtook the time I could have alloted to do the job. It's been 2 weeks and I've only done half of it. I've put in more than 18 hours. The people are frustrated with me and I'm frustrated with them.
I used time that I could have slept in because I was off of school and caught up on my sleep deprivation (sleep debt of a couple hundred hours). Instead, I work on this. Well, no more. The Lord wants us all to work diligently when we work. So. I will bear diligence in my heart for the Lord. So that He may make my soul fat. I'll get this done.
Maybe I'll freelance more in the future. But the next time, I'll make wiser decisions. I wont underprice myself the next time. I'll get back to work.
She had an accident. And ever since, she gets joint and muscle pain attacks. She gets them in school and she tries to suck it up and think its nothing, but I know that it's an unaddressed problem.
She also broke up with Jon. She didn't have to do this, but she is as I am. She rejoices in the truth. Right now, being apart from Jon, who used to also be her best friend, is causing her a lot of stress and anguish. I don't know what to do for her... I'm so far away, I can't just pat her on the back or give her a hug. I don't know what to do...
So I pray for her... That our heavenly Father may calm her pain.
I just came back from a college tour of USF Saint Peterburg. I'm drained. :cry: What keeps me going is my faith in the Lord's energy. I went to bed at 4 last night. Well...I'll keep going, I suppose. I'm working to get rid of all of this homework and business debt. Assignments here...clients there... Then I can finally be free from all of it. The clients especially... After this last person, I'm going to quit freelancing and start the business. I'm quite tired of freelancing - getting paid very little for work worth so much more. Of course, truly hard work is never done without a reward, regardless of how much is being paid. But still, the low amount of money for such labor is disheartening... I think it would be wiser of me to form a business rather than remain in this state... I have books on it, I just need to be free to read them. :?
