I am speaking to you now with 5 minutes before I leave in my work uniform with my name tag off with a have-eaten waffle and a mug of coffee on my desk. I am late. I, once again, missed the number 4 bus to William's Park. Erik called me and I told him that I couldn't get to Kung Fu today, once again. One foot out the door, I must remember that when I get out of work, it will be evening instead of morning! I am forming bags under my eyes. Oh well. I am still alive and what I am doing can only benefit me. At least it's not back-breaking labor. :wink: I can handle it. Yesterday I was standing a the register looking around and I was thinking to myself about why God made things this way and it all became so clear and I understood the meaning. But I should have written it down because as soon as I came home from work, I forgot and went to sleep. Let's see if I remember again today so that I can put it in my next post. I'm also reinstalling my server to get Biznitz.com on the road and on it's way. Then I have to check up with Nintel.com about their CMS I'm programming. Then on to NYFlava Fashions to complete their flash site design. All sorts of things. No sleep until next week. 8) Later.
yay! I have a new computer now. I am quiote happy. Yes. Quite happy. But, as I have learned from a wealthy spiritual friend of mine, the effect that material possessions have is only temporary. Well, at least I can complete tasks more efficiently. I have so much to do! I reinstalled all of my old programs and some new ones. My graphics program is installed. I installed 3D Studio Max. Everything. It wouldn't run because I didn't have a graphics accelerator so I went to Microsoft and downloaded DirectX 9.0, but I don't know if that solved the problem. I have tested it again yet. But, I should be learning 3D graphics in a few months. Tonight I have to finish this English persuasive essay research and then finish off my Calculus. There's a test on derivatives tomorrow. I also have to work until midnight. And I'm up at 1! How bad is that for me! It's so unhealthy and I'll be falling asleep all over the place. I can catch about 45 minutes worth of sleep on the bus in the morning, but I have to use that time to study for Calculus (yes, I have a flashlight and I work in the dark). Then I have to do the website for NYFlava. I n-e-e-d to finish their website. School is killing me and Work and my Business are finishing me off. But, at least it's productive. I got a lot done tonight and I managed to stay awake without falling asleep and even have time to update this! I have been reading my Bible every day and as soon as I get a few things organized more effectively I'll be posting some scriptures up here. I got the idea from a person here at tBLOG who's nickname I currently can't recall. Well, work 6-midnight after school tomorrow. Then on Saturday and Sunday 10:45 in the morning until 6 in the evening. I work hard, but, as God says, hard work never goes without it's reward. Not that I'm only working for a reward. I could care less about the reward. I work because I am a man of God and God doesn't like lazy people and wimps. I must try to prove that I am not lazy and I don't complain about it to prove that I am no wimp. I can handle this. I can. I truly have no worries with God on my side. I am truly carefree. All I must do is ask it and God provides me with this certain strength that has helped me out of a lot of tiring situations.
Today I was at school and I was doing a MuAlphaTheta meeting with the other officers and we got to the part about fundraising. So I ended up running all the way across the school to Mrs. Bartle's class in the CWMP building (and believe me, I was running fast and people gave me that nut-case look that I usually get when I'm doing something out of the ordinary) and I asked her about the fundraisers. When I got back, I noticed that Mike and Robert were there. I talked to Robert's sister, Jessica, whom I have known since Elementary school. We were talking about the play. Then Mike, who dropped out of the play and whos part I have now filled, wanted me to speak Japanese. I asked him why and he told me that he wanted his sister to hear. And, to my eyes' surprise, his sister was a girl that I had always seen hanging around a certain girl that caught my eye one day. One day sophmore year (when I was young and naive, if that's any excuse for my behaviour) I fell ''in love" with a certain freshmen. She captivated me and all I could think of was her. I did a a few things to try to win over her heart, but she was afraid of me. All year I had wondered why. Then I stopped caring. These little problems that I used to have in the past became trivial to me when I rediscovered Jesus. I forgot all about her. But I never could forget the friends she hung out with. She was one of them. I had no idea she was Mike's older sister. And Mike wanted me to speak my languages because he wanted me to impress her. But I told him I wouldn't do it to impress anyone. He persisted, and I asked her if she'd be willing to come to the movie theater where I work on Saturday at around 6:00PM, when I get off, so that we could see a movie. I don't know if she'll show or not, but if I talked to her and not weird her out, I may get her to come. All of the relationship garbage that would usually trouble a person my age is of no concern to me at all. I am not worried. I just want to get to know Mike's sister. She's an attractive person, I do admit, but I've met many attractive people. Will I attempt to impress her? Absolutely not. I have no reason to subject myself to such a calamity. Every feable attempt to impress a woman has ended in a terrible reverse effect of what I was trying to do. I am just simply...not slick. I don't even try anymore. Oh well. There's plenty of fish in the sea and the sea is wide. So why fish now? I'm too busy in a more profitable market. I'll fish when I retire. Or death. Whichever comes first.
It's Tuesday at around 2:52 AM and I'm still up doing homework. Why? Long answer. From the mutual fund that my mum set up for me a year or two ago she pulled out around $900. She kept $500 for me to spend and reinvested the other $400. The plan was to use the $500 for a downpayment on a car. But I had second thoughts about that. My friend Alanna was selling her car for $250, which is a very reasonable price considering there was nothing wrong with the car. But upon closer inspection, I would have to spend $300 on a new radiator and $200 on a new hood and side panel in addition and the car is old anyway so I was afraid it would break down a month or two after I bought it from her. So my mum and I made a deal that I could share her car if I got my driver's license. She doesn't drive to work; my stepfather gets her there and back and she leaves her car there all day. So I'm free to use it. So, instead of a car, I'm devoting that money to buying a new computer and starting a business. I'm getting all of my homework done that I have to use my computer for early so that I'm not held up when I must go without it. I think I'm making a wiser decision considering the amount of money it would take me to own my own car as a young man. I would be paying around $80 worth of full coverage insurance (which would usually be $250 for a young man but the car I'd buy would be as old as dirt) a month, a $200 car payment, and I'd have to save money away for the possibility of something going wrong with the car. This way if I share my mum's car, I wont have to worry about saving anything for it, I'd be under her insurance so it would be cheaper, I'd only have to have PIP insurance which would cost much less, and I don't have to worry about a car payment. I've learned from all of this and from riding the bus a considerably long time that a car is a flaming pit that one throws money into. Anyway, I will be unavailable for the next few days because I'm having all of the old parts from my old computer ported to the new one to save money. I spent $600 on it:
M825LMR Socket A via KM266 DDR&SDRAM Video Sound LAN 56Modem Micro ATX 2 PCI 1 AGP Memory board (Motherboard),
AT/ATX Medium Deluxe case w/ 300 Watt PS (4) 5.25in - (2) 3.5in,
AMD Athlon XP (Either the Barton 2500+ 2.083gHz 333mHz FSB 512KB Cache or the Tbred 2400+ 2.0 gHz 266 mHz FSB),
16x DVD ROM Internal by Lite-on w/ Software,
HP DeskJet 3320 Color ink jet (my mum's idea),
HardDrive 60GB 7200rpm ATA100 2MB Buffer Western Digital-OEM,
I'm an extremely happy man because I haven't been able to get a new computer for a while. My computer right now is a 333mHz Pentium III with 64MB of ram and 2gigs of HD space. I've just had to upgrade it many times. It used to be a 133mHz Pentium first class with 16MB of RAM. Over the years I added a CD burner to it and a USB 2.0 port. No, I didn't buy these parts myself, they were given to me by my good friend Andy. I don't know what I'd do without the man, he's a very kind friend. Now I must go to finish my homework and pray to thank God for all that he's giving me. Take care everyone.
